Thursday, August 12, 2004
was sitting with liting,von and adora.so me and char,were sorta addicted to the lemon tree song in spore idol.haha.so we were thinking of some moves to match the song.so we do lors,then liting laughed,the rest too.only von miss out the fun.then crapp alot also.were practically laughing thru out the whole period.(: till some bitch spoil my mood.yes.that fucking bitch.ng peck hoon.shh here shh there.so irritating.so i give her bei song look and diao her.she saw,then call us one by one go to her.then when my turn,she ask the same question as others.am i unhappy with her.so i said i am.then i say she veh biased and all.shiok!i give her a very sarcastic smile and was sarastic to her at the end.shiok.
after that went cp with jai.went captains cook again.-.-* then gossip.haha.our specialty.then crapp too.then go home lotrs.refer to jai's blog.she was saying out how she feel and now it shall be my turn le.i really gotta say it.
riight.lijun.since yoo say if got any msg riight,leave yoor name big,clear and bold.fine i shall now.since yoo dun like it when we type smth and nvr state name.so i shall hereby write down yoor name as requested.i must get this off my chest or i will live with regret.especially so when im not really talking to yoo now.here goes.do yoo know that when yoo play yoo tend to go overboard?yes.maybe the person yoo are playing with is not me.but as an onlooker,when yoo see yoo will be irritated.yes.and yoo say but yoo are not that person wad,that person also not irritated then yoo irritated for wad.fine.how yoo know the person not irritated?that person might be,just that dun want to say.and even if say,yoo will either tell off that person or just say playing only kinda thing.wth mann?wad if someone plays with yoo like that?i bet yoo will scold that person upside down.yess.and sometimes,when yoo are joking or wad,i dun think its funny.not at all.period.yoor jokes aint even called jokes?they are so i dunnoe how to describe.it makes me pissed,not funny.yoo seem to take things for granted.pardon me if i am wrong.but the way yoo act,its making pple feel that way.its not a matter of whether yoo can express yoorself,but its actually a matter of how yoo act.look at the way yoo treat yoor frwens.im not implying me or jai,but generally yoor frwens.well,maybe the ones on better terms with yoo.the way yoo treat them is not like human.well.my meaning is not if yoo nvr treat us as humans,then why are we in sjc and why are yoo talking to us.my meaning is that,look at the way yoo "bully" them.the way yoo shout at them like wad.yoo are the boss?the way yoo scold pple and points yoor finger accusingly.then way yoo say "dun talk to me like that,etc" wad is this mann?have yoo ever thought of our feelings?how we feel?we do have pride yoo know.yeahhs.yoor pride is very strong.but so wad?we also have pride.and yoo like scolding jaime in public riight.have yoo ever thought of how humilated she felt?dun say yoo nvr scold her in public,cux the truth is before our eyes.yoo did.final.and yoo seem to want to take charge of things?pardon me again if i am wrong.i know its yoor nature that yoo talk very loud lars.but yoo keep shouting and shouting.it irks me.and when yoo want smth or wad,yoo will come and sa jiao,which i think is gross?it gets on my nerves.and when we talk to yoo,we dint even raise our voices.and yoo have to start shouting at us.wad are we?yoor dogs?must we do yoor bidding?sometimes when yoo scold pple,they keep quiet.why?its not that they respect yoo or think yoo are right.its because they are afraid of yoo.aint it time to change???to try treat yoor friends better.well yoo say we dun have to change for anyone.but.now its not a matter of changing for us.but for yoorself.yoo have to change for the better.if not in future,i can tell yoo.it will be very hard to survive.anyway.its up to yoo.i got no say.since yoo are happy with yoor life now and vice versa,so be it.i dun wanna give a damn.i've been tolerating these nonsense.and i think i have reached the limit.i dun wanna tolerate no more.yess.maybe yoo think im too much typing all these.but this is my blog.and this is how i feel about yoo.yoo have to accept critism.its part and parcel of life.i know no one are perfect.we dun ask for yoo to be perfect.but just to change yoor attitude.that's all.yes.these sound harsh.but just accept it.as suyin once said.the truth is always cruel.yes.and if yoo wanna clarify why i suddenly so wadeva yoo call it.i shall thereby explain here again.before the martina thing,i was already pissed and tolerant.i used to think yoo aint like that and even defended yoo when pple tell me yoo are like this and that.but now that i've experience it,i think those are all true.gone is the old me whereby i have been more tolerant.and that martina thing.i was pissed when i read.yoo say it once.yoo say it twice.i can laugh with yoo.yoo publish in yoor blog.fine.yoo tag fine.but yoo continued.on that very day i blew my top at yoo.i was already reaching the limit and was prepared to tell yoo to stop all these nonsense.i was already so freaking pissed with yoo the previous day.be it present or future.yoo carry on like that and yoo will lose more.i can assure yoo.yeapp.i have clarified everything.so now.yoo live yoor life and i live mine.i dun have the strength to face all these shit anymore.
yeahhs.type out these things that i kept in my chest for a long time.felt so much better.i dun care if its harsh,mean.insensitive or wadeva.cux that's exactly how i feel.and lijun,yoo can blog yoor unhappiness or wadeva.its none of my concern.yaryaryar.
i'm like a bird//*